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诸法因缘起，诸法因缘灭。 佛法难不难？

I have started to read further regarding Buddhism book lately, very interesting.

Last time, when i start reading, i fell asleep, but now i improved.

When i have a good time,  i dun bother to read anything regarding religion, just one question always mingle in my mind, "what is the purpose of life". Do we come here to grow old, to marry, to reproduce and to end our life?

That is?

When i was a student, my aim is to go to University, my parent & my teacher told me so.
When i graduated, my aim is settle for a job, hunt for a good man and build a family, because everybody do so.

But somehow or rather, there is always question in my mind, why am i here? Am i here just to complete a life cycle? Then my friends & family start telling me " u have been thinking too much, think about others who are very unfortunate! u are very lucky and blessed!"

Yes, i am. But no one answer my question.

2009, first experience dealing with death, the death of my beloved husband. I never expect the day come so fast, so sudden. But it did come。 i did not know how i have been through it, but i have been through it. My appreciation for my families & friends, their great support & love.

 当我面对我亲爱的人死亡时， 我是那么的无能为力，我还没好好道别。 我感到前所没有的恐怖，恐谎，沮丧。 我是什么都不能做。正真的失落和伤心， 是丧礼之后。

 人的生命是非常脆弱，我们永远以为我们的日子还很长。可是偏偏生，老， 病， 死， 是无人能逃得过。

我们的到来只是要丰盛的活一场， 然后再回到天堂吗？

还是生命就是不停的学习。。。轮回 ？

因缘。。。有为法， 无为法。。看来我要学习的。。还很多。

我不知道， 我要的答案会不会在佛法里。

可是， 佛法让我，对我过去的所做所为， 有了惭愧之心， 他让我面对失意之事时， 有了平常心。 他让我，在起心动念之时， 有了警惕之心。

我还是读不了佛经， 因为懒散。但是 因为亲人的死亡， 我抄了地藏王本愿经， 读了心经，它安了我的心，让我挺过了那一段日子。看来苦难有时侯，自有它的意义。

希望你我都找到心的安处。 在失意伤心时，还有力走下去。