清明

When i was a kid, i followed my family to visit my ancestors tomb, i have no feeling besides eerie..because they were gone before i was born. 1988， my grandpa pass away, i feel sad but i didn't cry because i only see him few times in a year, i was young.

2010 is my first heartbroken Qing Ming. I prepared everything for him and visit his tomb at Nilai Memorial Park.

I look like a stupid woman who talk in front of his tomb, and weep quietly. Chinese say “天人永隔” , that is really beyond word to describe the feeling. I realized how selfish and stubborn i was to my love one when he was still alive.

I only know how nuch i love him after i lost him forever, we never ever had a chance to say good bye.

Life is short, i don't know when i will say good bye. I am so scared of losing any of my friends or family  again, but i still have to carry on the journey till the day i say good bye.

佛教说得容易， 死亡只是换一件衣服吧了， 可是我永远做不到这种豁达。

心怀恐惧， 可是依然要向前走。 但愿从此不再有遗憾和悔恨。